Art- it's ok not knowing!

(Pls forgive the typos)
 
When an artist paints a picture they have no idea if that one picture is going to make any difference. Will that painting, that work, that creation touch one heart? Will that painting make someone cry and be cleansed and healed. Or Will that painting be meaningless in the realm of life just a painting that people pass by.
 
My life feels like a painting. I've been given the gift of art through music. The paper is my canvus and words are my paint. I'm definitely not The greatest artist who ever lived. I'm definitely not the greatest artist in the city. And I may not be the greatest artist on my block. But I can't stop making "art" 
 
Why was I born with that conviction inside of me to create? God gave it to me. God is the creator and we all have gifts of course. Today I just wonder why I Feel so compelled not knowing the outcome if any.
 
I'm writing my story and maybe no one will ever read it. Or worse maybe not even one person will be touched by it were blessed or changed or moved or cleansed.  What a nightmare that would be what a waste of time and effort and energy...or maybe not
 
I'm creating because I'm listening to the master, my king my creator my abba. I'm writing these songs and I'm writing this book for him -for an audience of one because I want to listen to him because obedience has value when combined with faith.
 
Just for today I have the faith to believe that there can be power in the little things (we) I do and create. I'm okay with not knowing if this song or book or work (my life's painting) will make a difference tho it might. It  makes me happy just to create. 
 
I'm having fun and I'm trusting like a child. It's okay if this work is just for me to bring healing and joy in my own life however limited that may seem. It's okay if the only purpose of my work is just to say to God "thank you" for this beautiful day and for my life's experiences.
 
Abba I give my gift to you I give my art to you I get my songs to you. It's yours Lord let everything within me praise you just because you are worthy and your love is lasting. Amen

3 comments

  • Alicia Sauer

    Alicia Sauer Albuquerque, NM

    Hi Michelle, Thank you for being so candid about your testimony, it's beautiful, inspiring and real. You are very talented, the voice of an angel. The lyrics to your songs are heartfelt and encouraging. I feel closer to God and Jesus listening to your music. Thanks for humbly sharing the beautiful gift you have. I shared a song of yours on my Facebook page, I want people to be moved like I was with your voice that you eloquently use to honor Jesuah! Keep singing His praises!!!

    Hi Michelle,

    Thank you for being so candid about your testimony, it's beautiful, inspiring and real. You are very talented, the voice of an angel. The lyrics to your songs are heartfelt and encouraging. I feel closer to God and Jesus listening to your music. Thanks for humbly sharing the beautiful gift you have. I shared a song of yours on my Facebook page, I want people to be moved like I was with your voice that you eloquently use to honor Jesuah! Keep singing His praises!!!

  • ken switzer

    ken switzer here at my chair -- LOL

    Sister, do you think your unqualified to sing? under-qualified to write a biography? Under-talented? Perhaps this is totally true --- if it is true, then it is totally awesomeness. What will history write about Michelle Gold? the poor young lady, just wasn't cut out to be a fisherman, or a tax collector, instead Poor Michelle Gold followed Messiah. She walked away from her job as a fisherman, she walked away from her job as a tax collector --- she had doubts about walking away from a steady job, a decent normal life, people laughed at her for walking away from steady money, a respectable life ---- but then again she walked straight into the life of Jesus and followed Him. ............................................sorry, Michelle, I seemed to have gotten your life mixed up with the disciples lives -------- then again, they changed history, so will you --- and I think you just realized that your painting in this life is indeed an original painting in the hands of God, it is a priceless painting.

    Sister,
    do you think your unqualified to sing? under-qualified to write a biography? Under-talented? Perhaps this is totally true --- if it is true, then it is totally awesomeness. What will history write about Michelle Gold? the poor young lady, just wasn't cut out to be a fisherman, or a tax collector, instead Poor Michelle Gold followed Messiah. She walked away from her job as a fisherman, she walked away from her job as a tax collector --- she had doubts about walking away from a steady job, a decent normal life, people laughed at her for walking away from steady money, a respectable life ---- but then again she walked straight into the life of Jesus and followed Him. ............................................sorry, Michelle, I seemed to have gotten your life mixed up with the disciples lives -------- then again, they changed history, so will you --- and I think you just realized that your painting in this life is indeed an original painting in the hands of God, it is a priceless painting.

  • Michelle Gold

    Michelle Gold

    Thank you Alicia! Means so much to me what you shared. I look foward to getting to know about you more. :-) Ken, you are also a gem. Thank you!

    Thank you Alicia! Means so much to me what you shared. I look foward to getting to know about you more. :-)
    Ken, you are also a gem. Thank you!

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